Twists of Fate

Today with the Autumnal Equinox, day and night are equal, and we head into the part of the year where the night is longer than the daytime. This always fills me with a mix of emotions. Some fear, because I know I struggle against hopelessness and depression with the absence of the light, but also some relief. With the cooler weather, some things slow down and we enter into more of a period of rest, and I can turn my attention to all the things I’ve neglected during the summer months. Like all the knitting WIPs.

I really try hard not to panic, and to just surrender to the turn of the seasons. This year, I will be alone for Mabon again, but I need the time alone now more than ever, I think. I’m stretched way, way too thin, and need to reconnect to my center, to do some grounding and I have an exceptionally difficult time doing so with anyone else around.

I may not have a feast, but what I will have tomorrow will fill in quite nicely. I’ll get to have one of what may be the last melons of the harvest. I need to take out the trash (omg some potatoes went bad and they REEK), and will head to the store for some heavy cream for the scone mix I got at VY&T earlier today. I think I’ll spend a good portion of the day breaking in the new tea set with some Earl Grey and some of the chai I bought, and might pick up a nice piece of cheese to go with one of the bottles of wine I have available. A simple menu of snacks throughout the day, but oh, how wonderful they will taste! I may also try to find some small tart shells and use the Italian plums I got at the farmers market to make…something.

Above all, I want to take some time in the daylight hours to reflect on what has happened since Ostara, to try to find my center, and to release all fear of what may come next. Things are somewhat uncertain for me right now, and I’m trying to remain positive. I can only hope my laid back plans for the day fill me with some badly needed peace and serenity and calm.

Happy Mabon and a bountiful harvest to all!