Twists of Fate

Which for anyone who has met me, is kind of apparent and sort of an understatement.

I have to say that my knitting really, really helped me out this weekend. I’m at a fancon in the Puget Sound area, and while I’m loving most of it, I feel completely out of touch with most of my fellow con go-ers and just generally am having a really hard time connecting with people this weekend. I ended up hanging out in my suite most of the time with a very small group of people I already know. Which was *awesome!*, don’t get me wrong. But I had hoped I’d be a little more able to be outgoing and make some new friends and stuff. Alas, this was not to be. Part of it is my physical state right now - I’m still totally burned out and exhausted and even the thought of going out for dinner makes me want to weep. So I ordered room service. Anyway, super tired, keep having to nap, feeling like a loser.

It got to the point where I felt totally claustraphobic in this room earlier, and while I dealt (poorly) with it by taking a nap, that same feeling was there when I woke up. You would think by now that I’d immediately reach for the soothing feeling of yarn running through my needles, and the rhythmic clicking that inevitably lowers my blood pressure better than just about anything else on the planet. But I’m so out of it I completely forgot that I’m still surrounded by a ton of fiber (yes, I brought four projects with me when I’m about 30 min from home…don’t you?) and generally had worked myself into a right fit before I plunged my hand into my purse to pull out something else and….

Ahhhhh. That blue merino/silk/angora blend that I’d ripped out earlier? Totally saved the day. Before I arrived at the hotel I’d cast on for a different scarf. Bigger needles, still a super simple pattern (some chevron scarf variant) and while it’s not totally as brainless as garter stitch (I still have problems purling without looking), it’s close enough.

Knitting. Good for exhaustion, social anxiety, headaches and potential blood pressure issues. Ahhhhhhh.

Dinner, then I try to get my geek on again. If not, well, that’s OK too. There’s always my knitting.